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Who’s To Say?: Life and Form in Life of M

This latest work is in some sense “about” a movie star; at any rate, it’s the angle that Cusk’s publishers (understandably) and critics (less understandably) have worked in their selling and reading of the book. It’s an approach that misses rather more than it captures, however, especially when leading to interpretations of the book that posit Cusk’s project as one uninterested in, say, character — or even in being a novel at all. One thing to say from the outset is that we’re not going to talk about movie stars, either generically or specifically, in relation to Life of M; or about which particular movie star might have waltzed through the cosmic background of Cusk’s own writing process in crafting it. We’re not interested in fame, here; we’re interested in art — and it’s been a very long time indeed since those difficult neighbours shared an address.

D. W. White on Life of M by Rachel Cusk.

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What Do We Really Know of Birds and Men?

The man is a rough bastard, a brute. And yet Stuart seems so preoccupied with the fact that “I did nothing to make Dad proud of me in his lifetime.” There is something devastating in this. The desire for a father’s approval seems to survive even when the father himself offers so little to emulate. Perhaps this is where the birds become so important. They offer another kind of inheritance, another way of understanding survival, freedom, instinct and masculinity — one that exists beyond the limitations of the father.

Elte Rauch reviews Fledgling by Josh Holton.

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The Surviving Cells (Extract)

Even after her husband died, she did not get mad, did not sue the hospital for negligence, or write any of the doctors a spiteful email. She just took the bad news home with her and lived with it. Now she has even brought her son back to the same doctor, after everything that happened to his father. What is wrong with this family? You would think they would at least get a second opinion, or try their luck with someone else. Who knows why they are really here? Maybe Dr Jovanovic is the only doctor available on their insurance plan. Maybe they have been forced into dealing with the exact person now who could not save the father back then. But Ana did not pick up any hostile feelings in their previous meetings. They just seemed sad, resigned, and wisely guarding their strength, not wasting valuable energy on an argument they would never win.

Read an extract from The Surviving Cells by Brian Willems.

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South Side Stories

The new kid Herman had this proud smile of rotting teeth. We were in the second grade and my teeth were crooked. I was embarrassed to smile. Herman’s teeth were falling out of his head, but he didn’t care what anyone thought. The teacher sat Herman next to me and he soon passed me a copy of Mad. I spent the next week reading it to pieces. We laughed at his collection of Garbage Pail Kids cards. We became friends with few questions asked. We traded numbers and started calling each other at home. He called Grandma’s house and asked, “What’re you doing?” I rarely had an answer that interested him. “Do you have a TV?” he asked. The basement had a TV, Uncle Val’s old set. “Yeah,” I told Herman, “I got a TV.” “Okay,” he said, “now go turn it on.” I hopped up on the arm of the couch and hit the power button. “Okay,” I said, “it’s on.” He told me to go to channel 99. “Channel 99,” I said, “that’s gonna take forever.” The TV in the basement didn’t have a remote, so you had to smash buttons up or down. “Not if you go backwards,” Herman said. “Huh,” I said. “Yeah,” Herman said. “Hit the down button like you’re going to channel three, but keep going. My brother showed me this trick.” I smashed the down button as quickly as I could. The channels flitted by. When I got to channel two and hit the button again, there it was: channel 99. Like magic. But the channel was dead. Grandma didn’t pay for channel 99. It was all static, but there were figures moving in it like people dancing in a hard rain. “You get there yet?” Herman asked. “Yeah,” I said, “I’m there, but I can’t see anything.” “Turn up the volume, but not too loud,” he said, “and put your ear to the speaker.” I pressed the volume button, notching it up one bar at a time. I pressed my ear to the speaker and listened. A saxophone, women moaning. “You hear it?” Herman asked. “I hear it,” I said. He giggled. “What is it?” I asked. There was a pause and all was mysterious and forbidden. Herman said, “It’s sex.”

Short stories by Ed Komenda.

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Zizek at the Cricket Club

On Thursday we went down with some friends for a chicken burger and chips. At 8 o’clock, they pick a name at random from the membership list and if you’re in the club, you win a grand, so the place was chocka. We sat in the back room, where the old people gather to talk about Reform and I felt as I usually feel at the club, self-conscious and chippy. Then, waiting at the bar for a consolatory whisky, I saw it. At a table in the corner of the room, a white-haired woman sat on her own. In front of her, alongside a glass of bottled beer, there was a book face down on the table. Its cover was white and the name of the author clear: Zizek. I started. Stared, grinned, gormless. A reader? Reading Zizek? At the cricket club? What were the chances?

By Charlie Hill.

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Off Grid

It’s a sky-blue day. Fern leaves spike as I wade in. Strands of grasses and stray ears of wheat weave. Nubs of rosehips bristle on hedges. From the thick nettles bunched around my knees, I could make soup. I could use dandelions even if the blackberries are frizzled after months of sunshine. Warm days slouch as we settle in, plant and sow. Next spring, Olly says, we’ll reap the bounty. Then we’ll eat like kings.

A short story by Deirdre Shanahan.

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The Hurrying Day

The mirror says he’ll do. More than do. He’s made an effort though whether it’s in the right way he can’t tell. Too formal or not? On stage, years fell away and he knew he looked pretty good for his age. In real life he’s revealed. He’ll show he still cares. She’ll see him as he really is. As he can be. It’s not too late.

He runs through the tangle of streets north of Oxford Circus but has to walk west for the church with the steeple. The place she mentioned. He’s early but doesn’t care. Once in his life he should be early. Which door? Smoky grey glass hides something, maybe people. Part of a hotel and at the main entrance a gathering of suited men and women in heels. He tries a door but it is locked, though a smaller one falls open at his pressure and he tips in.

A short story by Deirdre Shanahan.

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In Memoriam, Deirdre Shanahan

Towards the end of August, I received the news that Deirdre Shanahan had passed away unexpectedly whilst abroad. Deirdre was a talented and dedicated writer of fiction—short fiction in particular—with an impressive track record as well as great promise. At the time of her death, Deirdre was confirming the edits on not one but two new stories intended for publication here at 3:AM Magazine. With the blessing of Deirdre’s family, I’m grateful to be able to share these stories, even as I am saddened by the knowledge that they mark her final forays into fiction.

An editorial note by Daniel Davis Wood.

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The Annihilating Now: An Interview with Gerry Feehily

I was in the Spice of Life, this once gothy (but no longer), punky pub at Cambridge Circus, London, waiting to meet some Irish goth punks I was in a band with. We were called the Fireworks Factory. This incredibly well-dressed man came up while I was having my pint and said, in a very strong French accent, “Excuse me, I’m the art director of Yohji Yamamoto in France. Would you be interested in doing our fashion show in a couple of weeks?”
I said, “Are you taking the piss, mate?”
Three weeks later I was in Paris.
They put me up in a four-star hotel, I did the show, went out to places like Le Palace, Les Bains Douches, the legendary nightclubs, and that same weekend I ended up with agents in Paris, London and Milan. I was supposed to go back to Dublin to continue studying English and philosophy. I wasn’t a bad student at all, but I simply couldn’t say no. So I never went back. Never finished the degree. I’m a dropout, mate.

Gerry Feehily interviewed by Andrew Gallix.

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Quelque Chose de Tennessee

Ian and Véro are gonna get married one day. And then divorced later on, but they don’t know that now. Maybe Ian knows about them getting married, or maybe he doesn’t.

They’ve hitched to this town from Paris, where things hadn’t gone well. Nowhere to stay after Véro’s cousin ran out of patience with them crashing at her tiny flat, and the beer so expensive you wouldn’t believe it. More than in London, and Ian hadn’t thought that was even possible. Véro did warn him, though.

Alright, fine, but this place is gonna be better. They can stretch their cash for longer, have a bit of a rest; maybe calm down on the drinking for a bit. Véro laughs. You know they’re famous for their vineyards here?

A short story by Katy Derbyshire.

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Second World

“You know,” he said, “there’s a second world in which the Bartleby novella doesn’t exist.”
A narrow beam of sunlight had found its way to Paul’s pint and it reflected back up on the ceiling, a small golden spot quivering like a jellyfish.
Now, I knew Paul well enough to accept that, after a few beers, he’d sometimes say things meant to provoke, things he himself only half-believed.
“You mean a second world as in a fictional world, right?” I asked him.
He leaned in, conspiratorially. “That’s just the thing. I’m very close to believing that second world’s not a fictional world, but a real one that bleeds over into this world, sometimes.”

By Nicholas Rombes.

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Thanksgiving

It was hard, living on a hillside in Los Feliz, in a rented house with walls of glass, not to imagine the mountains surrounding the city burning. As if in a nightmare of perpetual fire. Lurking within the benign appearance, the appearance even of beauty, the beauty itself was the fire to come. Or something like that.

If she still wrote fiction, this would have been the start of the story.

A short story by Catherine Gammon.

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